Dorianne Laux: Mugged by Poetry

—for Tony Hoagland who sent me a handmade chapbook made from old postcards called OMIGOD POETRY with a whale breaching off the coast of New Jersey and seven of his favorite poems by various authors typed up, taped on, and tied together with a broken shoelace.


Reading a good one makes me love the one who wrote it,
as well as the animal or element or planet or person
the poet wrote the poem for. I end up like I always do,
flat on my back like a drunk in the grass, loving the world.
Like right now, I’m reading a poem called “Summer”
by John Ashbery whose poems I never much cared for,
and suddenly, in the dead of winter, “There is that sound
like the wind/Forgetting in the branches that means
something/Nobody can translate…” I fall in love
with that line, can actually hear it (not the line
but the wind) and it’s summer again and I forget
I don’t like John Ashbery poems. So I light a cigarette
and read another by Zbigniew Herbert, a poet
I’ve always admired but haven’t read enough of, called
“To Marcus Aurelius” that begins “Good night Marcus
put out the light/and shut the book For overhead/is raised
a gold alarm of stars…” First of all I suddenly love
anyone with the name Zbigniew. Second of all I love
anyone who speaks in all sincerity to the dead
and by doing so brings that personage back to life,
plunging a hand through the past to flip off the light.
The astral physics of it just floors me. Third of all
is that “gold alarm of stars…” By now I’m a goner,
and even though I have to get up tomorrow at 6 am
I forge ahead and read “God’s Justice” by Anne Carson,
another whose poems I’m not overly fond of
but don’t actively disdain. I keep reading one line
over and over, hovering above it like a bird on a wire
spying on the dragonfly with “turquoise dots all down its back
like Lauren Bacall”. Like Lauren Bacall!! Well hell,
I could do this all night. I could be in love like this
for the rest of my life, with everything in the expanding
universe and whatever else might be beyond it
that we can’t grind a lens big enough to see. I light up
another smoke, maybe the one that will kill me,
and go outside to listen to the moon scalding the iced trees.
What, I ask you, will become of me?

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Copyright 2024 Dorianne Laux. From Life on Earth: Poems (Norton, 2024). First published in Live Journal. Included in Vox Populi by permission of the author.

Dorianne Laux‘s many poetry collections include Only As the Day is Long: New and Selected Poems which was a finalist for the Pulitzer Prize.