Video: application for the position of abdelhalim hafez’s girl | Poem by Safia Elhillo
application for the position of abdelhalim hafez’s girl | Poem by Safia Elhillo | A film directed by Donna Lamar
i go quiet for days i turn the color of mirrors i turn the color of smoke men tell me sometimes that blue becomes me when i answer my voice is hoarse from disuse i am afraid of my body & the ways that it fails me i faint a woman on the subway platform catches me floating into the tracks i become the color blue i don’t like to be touched i wonder why more people have not been kidnapped by taxi drivers white men ask me to say their names in arabic ask where i’m [really from] i am six months returned from sudan henna fading to look like burns dusted up my arms i bleed & can’t stop bleeding i speak & my mouth is my biggest wound every language is a borrowed joke i catch myself complimenting strangers on their english i am six months returned from incense smoke to soften the taste of river water incense burned to avert the evil eye i see a possessed woman scream when a prayer is read her eyes the color of smoke & mine is a story older than water
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