Vanessa German: When thug Vanessa comes out

i am tender and mostly only a tuff thing when you have gone offa yo self and put fists to me or gone subversive and cruel the way toddlers do when they don’t get what they want. pissin in the potted plants and fallin out when mama has red wine in her hand and good friends over to a cleanish house. i get hard and i love when thug vanessa comes out. her eye contact be like good masonry work. it ain’t goin nowhere. and then it be a little like verbal Los Angeles street fights circa 1989. do it again. please do it again. but no one ever does and then to keep my soul safe my heart drops the vent dampers and i go to one of my sisters and i cry like a bone has been broken in my spine and i be spillin alla its contents into my palms. i love my sisters so much n I miss them like they are the cure by proximity.

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