Having gone public with your bisexuality the month prior — and blocking your parents and sister at the same time — the memories would have to suffice
I heard an announcement:
“If anyone in the vicinity of Gate A-4 understands any Arabic, please
come to the gate immediately.”
She is fine like a ringlet of fiddlehead fern
before it unfurls in the summer forest
Abstaining clouds that passed, & kept
Their own counsel, we
Were different, we kept our own counsel.
I want to talk to you—Alito, Barrett,
Gorsuch, Kavanaugh, Roberts, Thomas
When Mama and Baba pulled us from under their bed, we stood where our wall had been and looked over the smoking city.
In the lost rooms of my childhood,
cinnamon and nutmeg float in the air
it was one thing for a white man to bed a black woman, but unthinkable that he would marry her. And it was commonplace for a black woman to be forced to open her legs to her employer or his sons. But Martha married white and returned home with the man!
the telephone rang it
was Mr. Shupstead at the
mill they had had to use
tear gas father made a
special prayer right a-
way for God’s protection
You want to lie down in the lost field
of your courage and sleep
beside the blurred road of snow
I try
not to think of all the time I spent
going over what went wrong
between us, how badly I missed
who I wanted her to be
Last night we took a friend for a walk along the edge
of our mountain. She looked out
over the city, the rivers, the sultry slopes
crowded with sumac and maple
and said So you know where you live
I’m forgetting others, I know.
One had a scar near his eye in the shape of a bird.
One, a firefighter, had tattooed the word
mercy, and fed the feral cats.
The man at the front door wants work,
any job. Hand on the knob, I start
to turn him down, to swing the door’s weight
to, but then I consider my mother’s mother.