I pretend I am living in a faraway
city, somewhere in Europe, where doves
coo in the bell towers and a woman in
heels click-clicks over the cobblestones,
walking, walking late into the night.
I see roadside altars that open portals.
I see drivers slipping by those mounds
of cardboard signs and paper flowers
Beautiful wreckage of my country, I’m still trying to love you.
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when the last leaves let go, let go,
have all let go, & it’s almost winter again —
don’t remember my birthday
years later jazz, a free communal experience
embodying love, saved me just as poetry saved me
I shall find room enough here
By excluding myself; by excluding myself, I’ll grow.
Some days I don’t know what to do with this rage I carry.
Peer passed vibrant stalks of rain. Think of his absent face
now uncaught by earth, light among stars. The man
is now stardust. His voice like the riddle of dreams.
I empty my mother’s ashtray of its treasures—
various picks, the broken watch, a mandolin bridge,
that lock of my wife’s hair—then peer through the amber
glass at a distorted day. What looks back at me?
What does the pale infant turning to dust
in the gray light deep in the powdery rubble know
of the torn hands of her parents digging to find her?
The geese are calling—this is
time to depart. They gather and sink and
soar toward somewhere.
My native tongue doesn’t allow
the imperfect tense, so it’s difficult
to say how something might used
to happen but no more.