On the outstretched arm of a pinwheel galaxy
and doomed to be free. Into the bonfire
the vanities, as into a cave
the light.
The day grew hot; the yard
held the heat until the late shade
gathered it. Deep in shadow
the ghosts convened
In the decks above, life was throbbing and squirming in anticipation of some event that would never come. Or if it came, would be so gradual as to be uneventful. The sea told me that.
I drove silently in the night
into the heaving hills of Los Angeles afire, so close now,
not knowing if there would be a way through
“Nomads are in contact with nature every day, surrounded by rivers, mountains, and deserts. The silence of the desert allows them to hear nature.”
Let me fall if I must fall.
The one I will become
will catch me,
said the Baal Shem Tov.
In Chatham Woods near our house
a spring bursts
from a hillside and falls
into a rocky pool
Tell them, tear, you are finished and
they should chuckle like old men who
stand between stanzas and a widow’s
Social Security check.
‘Never again’ means ‘never again, for anyone, anywhere, ever.’
I’m flying like a sparrow in my sleep
with only a pen to guide me
my palm beneath your palm
along the arc of your pregnant belly
as though my hand were the planchette
on a Ouija board
We’re broken buttons, we’re blown dust.
There’s not one tear left in all of us.
I know, for I am François Villon, murderer
like the letter that doesn’t come,
the one I would carefully slit open
and slowly unfold
She leaned in, my mother, and felt the sleeve
First, then the shoulders, but she left it on its hanger in its own dark
Closed the door as if it were a sacred ark of rules the light might wither
Something I knew she would look at and leave