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AWP Conference, Philadelphia, March 2022 I broke from the colloquy of ten thousand poets, walked down Arch Street with the March wind in my face and a few flakes falling. I was headed for dinner but, as things turned out, I became a witness to love. Evening filled the air with light and shadow. Two young men walked toward me holding hands -- the air was cold but the men were warmed by laughter. A stylish older couple passed by arm in arm, their faces pink and happy in their woolen scarves. I walked past the Kabuki Sushi and the TexMex Grill, past the elegant Notary Hotel with its marble floors and mirrored halls where we’d discussed Dickinson, past the magnificent City Hall in the Second Empire style of 88 million red bricks and thousands of tons of white marble, over 700 rooms and 250 sculptures, capturing artists, educators, and engineers who embodied American ideals and contributed to this country's genius as the bronze says and the tall clock tower, witness to the slow decay of this glorious city of brotherly love and anguish. I came to the Fogo de Chão Brazilian Steakhouse on Chestnut Street where a haunch of roasted calf is carved beside each table and I tried not to think of the terrified yearling who’d given his life for this spectacle of consumption. Not having tasted flesh for 15 years, I filled up on fresh greens, beans, fruit and light fluffy Pão de Queijo at the lavish salad bar and my young friends and I laughed and gossiped and ranted about the current war and the past president and who’d won the big-ass poetry prize and whether someone else, meaning one of us, should’ve. Next, the U-Bahn with live loud music by SlamJam but I couldn’t hear anyone talking, hadn’t had a drink in 37 years, too old for sloppy, and my friends were heading to the Good Dog Bar The Black Sheep Pub or the Harp and Crown – they couldn’t decide— so I said goodbye and walked away, calling it a night after 68 years of mostly good luck and walked up Filbert toward Thirteenth where it passes beneath the Convention Center, the wind becoming fiercer and the snow faster and harder, white in the darkness. People hunched over as they walked, holding their collars close around their throats and I remembered going to the Flower Show at the Convention Center the day before where the air was heavy with jasmine and gardenia and I thought heaven if it’s anything at all must surely and entirely be warmth, scent and color. I turned onto thirteenth street, a block-long tunnel where people sleep on the sidewalk huddled in blankets and plastic sheets, hoodies hiding their faces, their hands neither black nor white but gray with the dust of the city, a few zombie drug addicts but mostly just people with nowhere to sleep except this dark cold cave their lives had become. A man with a puppy snuggling inside his coat glanced up, puzzled. People like me usually walk the long way around to avoid people like him because we’re afraid to look deprivation in the eye, resent admitting our own dumb luck, but in my superior compassion, my arrogant morality as a vegan, a social warrior on many fronts, armed only with my thin belief in Good Orderly Direction, I decided to risk walking among the indigent as if I were Mother Teresa and not just a tourist of misfortune. A car stopped. A white woman in jeans handed a Styrofoam box to a man hunkered and trembling on the sidewalk. He nodded thanks and the car moved to the next man and the next, each one receiving supper, perhaps a Last Supper I thought wryly, immediately ashamed of finding irony in compassion. The car came to a woman with two small girls, the mother dressed in rags but her children in pink parkas, the woman giving everything to her children, keeping nothing for herself, and the small family received the dole of fried chicken, mashed potatoes, brown gravy, a dinner roll, a small heap of chopped greens and a delicate plastic fork, tines breaking off in their food. The car pulled up to the last man standing on the sidewalk, gray hoodie pulled back revealing a scarred face, dreadlocks like a black halo. The social worker handed him his dinner and the man leaned over to kiss her cheek, a chaste thank you, an affectionate reward for her kindness, but the woman yanked her head back, avoiding his kiss and the two stood surprised, their faces a hand’s breadth apart, two travelers caught in a web, uncertain how to break loose from the other’s gaze.
Copyright 2022 Michael Simms
Michael Simms is the founder and editor of Vox Populi. His recent books include a collection of poems Nightjar (Ragged Sky, 2021) and a novel Bicycles of the Gods: A Divine Comedy (Madville, 2022). He lives in Pittsburgh.
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whew. thanks as always for your hard glittering truths, michael
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And for yours, Abby.
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So true! We don’t want to acknowledge our ‘dumb luck’ That is at the root of so much reckless disregard and hypocrisy. Yes, Michael, you nailed it. Thank you for this haunting and beautifully crafted poem.
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Thank you so much, Joan, not just for this generous comment, but for all you do for poets and community.
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Chills of vivid emotion.
Congratulations on this wonderful poem.
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Thank you, Vengo. I appreciate your encouragement in so many ways.
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Thank you. Wonderful poem. I remember your “quotidian poem” prompt. It works–if the poet has the power of observation–and the heart.
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Yes, well I guess every poem is a journey. If not a physical one, then a spiritual or psychological one.
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Thanks Michael for this. For beautifully making us uncomfortable. That denied kiss is the flip side of Naomi Nye’s Gate A-4. Thanks again.
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Thanks, Emily. I know Naomi’s poem, but I hadn’t thought of it as the flip side of mine. I’ll have to think about this pairing. Michael Simms https://www.michaelsimms.info
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Thanks Michael, clearly one of your best.
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Thanks, Mel. I appreciate your ongoing support.
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Years ago, I was chatting with a Catholic priest, my spiritual advisor. We spoke of the Berrigan brothers, and he asked, “Who are today’s prophets?” I said something vague, but I really didn’t have an answer for him then.
But today – this poem – this is old school prophecy.
jst
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John, I am very honored by your praise. Thank you!
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Oh the heartbreaking closure! and “Two young men walked toward me holding hands —
the air was cold but the men were warmed by laughter” — —–and so much more. What a poem!
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Thank you, Laure-Anne. It’s so nice to see you back on these pages. We missed you! Michael Simms https://www.michaelsimms.info
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Wow! I was there. And felt the beauty and the cold and my privilege. Maybe someday I’ll get to play with the big kids and go to a conference. Thank you. ( the ending. Oh the ending)
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Thanks, Barbara! Your presence on these pages is a blessing.
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You are at the height of your powers and outdid yourself with this one, Michael. Bravo.
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Thank you, Beth. Writing the poem required me to look at myself in ways that I’d never had to do before. Some of what I saw I didn’t like. Michael Simms https://www.michaelsimms.info
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Michael, you nailed it! Absolutely gave me back my experience of those three days. Thank you. I found that all the complexity was drained from my experience every time somebody asked and I said, I had a great time, a great time. Thanks for restoring all that was slipping away.
Bravo!
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Thank you, Maestro. I admire your poems so much, your praise means a great deal to me. Michael Simms https://www.michaelsimms.info
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Simms is back with this poem after a war he waged for Ukraine.
The language and the humur are different. The passion is more thin and real since it touches on social and humane dilemma.
A new one..
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Thank you, Saleh. America is a rich country, but the poor here live much like the poor in other countries, hungry and sleeping on sidewalks. There is no excuse for the way we treat the needy.
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Thank you for sharing your experience in this wonderful poem. You brought me back to the city I grew up in and I felt like I was walking with you.
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Thank you, Lois. My experience in Philadelphia was enlightening. Great history and architecture there, but I was troubled by the many homeless.
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Wow, what a great takeaway, better than a tote bag for sure. And I love how you used the stolen kiss. Hope you read it at Mulberry Street.
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Thanks, Ellen. I’m grateful for all you do for me and for other poets.
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I echo the other’s comments. You brought me to and through the tunnel, with all the often conflicting emotions of being human. Beautiful poem.
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Thanks, Melanie. It was a difficult poem to write because it made me face my own privilege, and the denial of that privilege.
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Excellent. That ending: damn.
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Thank you, Billy.
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Thank you, Michael, for your poem, which took me there/
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Thanks, Mary Jane. Sorry we didn’t get a chance to get together. Your car broke down in Wisconsin?
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Ripper poem, Michael! You take us right there and we are with you each step of the way, the images, the emotional responses, the self-judgment, all of it…
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thanks, David!
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