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Wendy Mnookin: NICU

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Why is this night different

Why is this night different

from all other nights? Wine

and matza and now our children

tossing in their childhood beds, dreams

tumbling between then and now,

their children trundled into bunks,

loveys clutched tight. Three a.m.,

our daughter at our bed

and I’m instantly awake.

Stumbling on her words

she tells me Laura is in labor

too early. I’ll drive you, I say,

already pulling on jeans.

You can’t, she says, you’re too upset.

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On the way

We can’t stay at the first

hospital, the baby will need

neo-natal intensive care.

They must go by ambulance,

snaking along the river into Boston,

I must follow in the car.

The river, intermittently lit

as I round curves, seems murky,

intent. And also giddy

with anticipation, almost

unable to hold back

a white-capped splash of laughter.

In the room

I make myself small

and quiet, let them take over

space and time. The doctors,

one by one, bring information,

so much information.

Laura refuses the fetal monitor

that would tie her to the bed

and the doctor loses patience,

tells her all the worst that could happen.

They stand there, holding each other.

Her contractions slow.

And then I offer up

stories, remember when we did

this, remember that, and the boundary

waters, and the campsite with the three men

who were welcoming in a threatening

kind of way? Crone that I am,

witch, fairy, sorcerer, mother,

and her contractions start again.

When the time comes

There will be commotion

The baby will be whisked away

It can’t be helped

Be prepared

And then

into the momentary

hush

the doctor says

Laura

He says Laura

Reach out your arms

Here is your daughter

Already

She’s so big

my daughter and I say to each other

as we hurry by the side of the cart

to the elevator. We are spilling over

with relief, already proud

that she has defied expectation.

She must be five pounds, we say.

The nurse looks at us.

About three, I’d guess.

Please

I hold her, skin

to skin, her naked body

against my naked chest.

I breathe deeply, steadying

my heartbeat, her clock,

her comfort.

Child, open your eyes.

Soon, please, open your eyes.

Week five

My daughter says

the dog isn’t getting enough exercise.

Lucy says

the snacks in the break room are yummy.

Lucy says

having a sister is fun, when will she talk?

My neighbor says

here’s a casserole.

The doctor says

any day now.


Copyright 2017 Wendy Mnookin

Wendy Mnookin’s recent books include Dinner with Emerson (Tiger Bark).

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2 comments on “Wendy Mnookin: NICU

  1. Emma Stamas
    June 16, 2019

    Those beautiful poems bring back such memories. We were so lucky to be in Boston that day, to be able to hug Laura and express our love and gratitude and relief. Then hold tiney April and slowly watch her grow and thrive, to enjoy Lucy,too, and to get to know your family.
    It was a wonderful time. We experienced only a few hours of worry and fear that things might not go so well. Then it was pure joy to see April grow and finally come home.

    Liked by 1 person

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